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   On Love...

Love is a many-splendoured thing; Love lifts us up where we belong; All you need is love...

Maybe not, actually. Love is all sparkles and light when you first fall in love, but after a while, it drops back down to normal, almost commonplace proportions. Sure, your heart still beats a million miles an hour when he walks into the room and when he looks at you, you melt like icecream left in the sun on a summer's afternoon, but there's a part of your brain that has to remain slightly rational, otherwise you'd never get anything done.

And it's always this part that gets you into trouble. It's this part that lets you speak your mind and it's this part that forgets sometimes that love isn't rational or organised, and that people aren't perfect. In fact, people are generally downright nasty, myself included. I mean, look at my rant the other day. Although I was just getting a bunch of stuff off my chest, stuff that's been bugging me for years, that's not going to say that I didn't end up hurting someone by it. And I didn't even mean to.

That's why people suck. Because no matter how much we love each other, or think we do, we always end up hurting one another, hopefully unintentionally, but sometimes it occurs with real malice. Or at least perceived malice. And all we can do is apologise and hope that the other person will forgive us. Because that's what true love is all about, right? It's about loving someone complete with all their faults and imperfections, knowing that despite all your faults and imperfections, they still love you. At least, that is what I hope it's meant to be. Truthful, brutally honest, and yet somehow wonderful, because despite the pain it causes, one comes out of the experience feeling that they are a better person, or at least that they are more aware of their own flaws.

Anyway, I don't really have very much else to say about this, other than the blatently obvious "I love you, James, completely, utterly, with all my soul, and I wouldn't want you any other way. I know we have our difficulties from time to time, but I do love you, and I never mean to hurt you. I'm sorry."

It's late and I'm depressed, so I think I'll leave this off now. Goodnight world. Goodnight James.

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