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A dream,
A nightmare,
Has been plaguing my sleep.
So much that I cannot escape it,
Even when I am awake.
The rose on my dresser is wilting,
A sight I never thought I would see.
My love's heart has been broken,
Because of a dream.
Every night I see her die,
And she dies because of me.
I am her guardian,
But could not protect her,
And so I have mocked destiny.
I have tried to change things,
Believing that I would rather never see her again.
I make myself believe that if I try hard enough,
She will hate me,
And then she'll be safe.
I walk down the street,
Trying to calm my thoughts.
When,
Like a cyclone,
She knocks me over.
I stop her from falling,
And she looks up,
Hope flaring anew in her eyes.
"Mamo-chan?" she askes,
Tears in her eyes.
I feel my heart break in two,
I close my eyes,
Every part of me rebelling against what I do next.
But before my eyes I see the vision of her dying,
And I remake my vow of silence.
I get to my feet,
I can not look her in the eye.
"Mamo-chan?" she asks again, sounding confused.
"Leave me alone", I grunt and stay to move away.
But she grabs my hand and makes me stay.
"It's over Usagi, why can't you see that?"
I say, not believing my ears.
Why can't she see that?
Why can't I see that?
Why don't I agree?
"But what about the moon, Mamo-chan?
You cannot expect me to forget all that?
Forget everything you said?
Forget the way you looked into my eyes?
The way you still do?"
I jerk my eyes downwards,
And mutter, "thing's have changed since then".
I walk on,
Turning my back on the only woman I will ever love.
The pain is too great.
A tear escapes my notice,
And slides down my cheek unchecked.
And so destiny will have to take a new course,
A path of my own making.
But in my mind,
I will never forget that:
In her eyes I could see that she hates me,
But not as much as I hate myself.
All poems © Copyright 1997-2002 by Catherine.
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